Forgive me for saying but you do seem very 'touchy' about the label 'disabled'. In fact you go to great lengths to put yourself at arms length from other disabled people by referring to 'the disabled' - aren't you one of us.
It would seem to me that you just haven't yet come to terms with your diagnoses and that you feel angry as to why it's happened to you. You don't want to be associated with the 'tag' of being seen as disabled. Think about why that is.
Shit happens. And we all have our own strategies dealing with it.
As it stands you sound very negative, try turning things on there head. Find the positives which will change your outlook on life in general otherwise you'll drive people away.